Fellows got the work I was late to work on

Hmm, another day feeling terrible. I keep making the cycle of unproductive lifestyle. I keep feeling terribly, why do I live miserably every day? They used to be my good friends, and I think I was not kind enough as a human being. Why am I jealous now they exclude me? K told me about idea to work, I didn’t do it at all for 2 months. Now I am way behind.