Heartbroken again

Well it is it. I destroyed my opportunity with good people that I was meant to be because of my lustful thoughts and toxic people, now I am all alone. I think I am meant to be alone. I like her a lot though. It is like a only chance I could ever get so closed to a healthy and meant to be forever relationship. Detroit sad.
”A boy wonders if she likes him. A man wonders what he likes about her" - Zan Perrion
It’s not the responsibility of the girl who told you “no” to help you improve yourself. You want to improve? Focus on being interested and interesting. Be interested in something, anything, enough to be able to have an intelligent conversation about it. Show your passion for your interests. Participate in things surrounding those interests. All of this will make you interesting. Even if someone doesn’t share those interests, passion is contagious. Read listen to How to Win Friends and Influence People, The Upward Spiral, Don't Sweat the Small Stuff, Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck and The Power of Vulnerability. As for self improvement: start simple. I suggest picking up ONE (1) and only one of the following habits and doing it daily or semi-daily, then AFTER you've picked that up, add another. It may seem tempting to tackle all this at once but it's easy to get burnt out:
  1. Nofap
  2. Exercise
  3. Cold showers
  4. Reading productive books
  5. Socialization
  6. Meditation
  7. Journaling
  8. Consistent sleep schedule (8+ hours, sleep early and wake up early)