A last sad Wednesday

Sitting here in my last day of my first quarter in this new job, everything feels like a complete disaster. What us the deal with today? I told myself everyday waking up that I will try to rebuild my life! Yes, that is right, rebuild my life from a complete ruin. However, it seems to me that nothing has ever changed, probably discipline is the thing I lack of, which makes consistency is something I can only dream of but never achieve. Am I just playing the victim, pitying myself over and over again? Time does not wait for me, I know that so well. “Concentrate all your thoughts upon the work in hand. The sun's rays do not burn until brought to a focus. “ — Alexander Graham Bell What is the work in hand today? I feel so tired, mostly cause I am lazy and I don’t want to face the problem. Using the word “tired” I can just excuse myself from actually putting in the hard work, I can keep procrastinating and then, next year, the year after that, … nothing change. That word “tired” is so dangerous.