Random thoughts

I remember when I was young, I had the passion to do everything by myself, even re-inventing the wheel. I remember I hoped to create a new computer like they did. Growing up I thought it was a bad idea, and eventually I google everything, including why am I sad? I became a shell of myself, not me anymore. I did not think, therefore I did not exist. I follow whatever belief I found that makes sense, and no questions asked. How disappointed I am about myself right now, at this moment. What is the version I want to become? What do I want to do in this life? What make me want to get out of bed everyday? I used to be so excited about doing something, just doing something. Then I found that just doing something is a waste of time, I need a path. Then I fall into analysis paralysis, just finding paths instead of doing something. Like a vicious cycle, now I want to just do something, for **** sake, just do something instead of wasting time uselessly, browsing the internet mindlessly. Why do I keep reading other people’s opinion without forming mine? When will this end? “Procrastination is the thief of time.” — Edward Young “You may delay, but time will not, and lost time is never found again.” — Benjamin Franklin