I am turning to the going down phase of my life. What have I accomplished this first half of my life?
It feels like my life consists of all bull shits.
I studied the not wise one, burnt out, then now facing being irrelevant in this job market. Changing job is also hard, financially desperate and cannot help my family.
Why did I do this to myself?
Hmm new year, what can I do to save myself? Probably I need to completely kill off the idea of someone is gonna come and save me, like a girlfriend. That is illusional.
Sleep, this needs to be fixed. It is so bad.
Gym, so bad.
Momentum is gone.
Shit, I need to stop hating myself.